Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Stranger in a Sari



When Dinesh Ravindra Gunaratne (otherwise known as DRG), longtime friend, movie maker and fellow arts-enthusiast invited us for “Stranger in a Sari”, I literally rubbed my hands together and exclaimed “finally!”

Having known this individual for quite a while as an incredibly gifted artistic soul with this sense of something (we have always interpreted as) just bursting to come out, in my head he had always been this ticking time bomb, ripe for bursting forth with something wonderful. But we knew him mostly as a movie maker with a flare for the unusual and his never-seen-a-box-in-his-life way of thinking. So when “Stranger in a Sari” finally came out, Dinesh had more than a few surprises in store for us. 

The venue was laid out tastefully with elegance and sophistry, one that you would only expect from someone with an eye (kudos to the awesome deco person Gihan Karunanayake). The program was short and sweet with a few readings from some intriguing pieces including the fascinating short story “Stranger in a Sari” which held the audience captive within the short time it unrolled. The crowd present was comprised of Dinesh’s closest circle and the love was indeed felt as Dinesh took the microphone in hand to thank the myriad people who were involved. Judging by the response of the crowd, it was quite plain to see that the writer and artist is a much loved individual cherished by many.

Let me rewind just a little bit.

So there I was having arrived early, flipping through the beautiful booklet that was handed to me (classy and intriguing cover, 4 elegant bookmarks n all) waiting for my other half (who was characteristically late). It didn’t take long for this unassuming little thing to draw me right in. It was a strange feeling, sitting there in the midst of the crowd yet hardly even aware of them, lost within the pages of the book. The crowd did not exist. The Cappuccino in front of me did not exist. Simply said, the words on those pages wrenched my heart right out of my rib cage, squeezed it open and left it bleeding, exposed and vulnerable. All my life’s heartbreaks came tumbling back to me. There was pain, yes, unbearable, all consuming, pain, but there was also hope. And it was amazing how he has taken that pain inside him, twisted and twirled it into a masterful craft, sprinkled it with a bit of hope and unleashed it full blast upon us unsuspecting beings. It was cruel, beautiful poetry, brought forth by a cruel beautiful world.

Weirdly enough, this hard-hitting phenomenon left me nostalgic for all the heartbreaks of the past. Hardly something that one would be nostalgic about. Most importantly, it made me “feel”.

“I woke up
With pain
Gushing through my veins
Losing you
Made me fear life”

He says. And on the next page he is

“kissing the mirror
To feel the wetness of
Your lips”

Pungent. Vivid. Resonating. And the reader goes, ‘I know that deep stabbing pain in the morning just as you wake up. I know exactly how you feel!’.

My personal favourite has to be the below.

“It’s hard when
Memories remain in
Your old phone’s
Memory card
She took the exact picture
The same pose
With her new husband…..”

Very real, very true to life. This could be anyone, phones bearing too many memories, exes taking the same kind of pictures in the same poses as they once posed with you with their new found lovers – we’ve all faced that pang of deep, deep hurt, that first moment of discovery when you stumble upon your pictures with them on Facebook just when you thought you are over them……

“Health tip
Don’t try to own
A travelling heart
With the hope of
Hiding it
Inside your soul
From the rest of the world”

How very, very true.

What is remarkable about this is that even though it seems like the protagonist has suffered a deep loss and has been in a dark lonely place, there is no bitterness, no anger nor hatred detected in any of these pieces. There is a childlike innocence in the protagonist, an eternal optimism that shines through his words. The woman, the creature that caused him pain is presented as a sublime, sensual, mysterious creature by whom the protagonist continues to be very much fascinated. There is respect and awe of the female creature still and a sense of adoration. This amazes me - in a world where females are lashed at, insulted and objectified every second of the day, this is refreshingly new indeed.      

Dinesh refers to his collection as “sentimental rants”. And with that he shows us how easy it is to enjoy and to feel humanity with all its faults, its sensuality, emotions, sentiments and feelings without the pompous grandeur or the unnecessary embellishments. The empathy in his work is astounding. It is honest to goodness emotions turned to words, scattered upon the pages, with love. Simply, beautiful.   

I particularly loved the short stories. If anything, Dinesh Ravindra Gunaratne is a superb story teller and this is not the first time he has exhibited it. Unexpected plot twists, incredibly detailed accounts, he sucks you into these little parallel universes he creates with his stories and abandons you there, leaving you to your own antics. You simply could not rest until you’ve read it all. He has this old school style of writing, showcasing I think, a love for all things vintage and a sort of yearning for the past when things were lavish and dramatic. This, especially, appeals to me. Things are much too sterile and minimalist these days, boring in execution and insipid in design. His prowess as a movie maker sharpens his knack for story writing, these tales bringing characters to life and engraving them in your mind. These are memorable stories showcasing rare genius. It’s been a while since I’ve read a memorable short story, Dinesh’s being the first in perhaps, years.

Speaking about his movie making, I wish I had a few links to his short movies to back up my claim. But here is the trailer of just one of his many works called Mata pissu naha” that I managed to find online after raking through tons and tons of material. However, do check out the Mathwada Facebook page managed by Dinesh and his best friend and partner in crime Naveen Marasinghe. This is bound to capture your attention. 

In the meantime I also found this. A short film named Cleopatra’s shoe, inspired by a story by the great G.B Senanayake, who also happens to be my favourite Sinhala writer.

Did I mention that they are also the creators of Mathawada? Checkout the site here.  

The book feels intensely personal. It is like the publishing of the book is the final let go of the pain and suffering and I could almost hear the writer shedding a sigh of relief, finally letting it go. I recognize this feeling. I can relate to it. It is akin to amassing all the gifts, the poems, the notes, written by and to a past love, making a huge heap of it in your front yard, ceremoniously setting it all on fire and watching the flames consume it all, a little bit of pain disintegrating, freeing you as the fire disintegrates the paper bit by bit. It feels deeply satiating. 

And another thing that really stood out at the event and further proved that he really is an individual dedicated to the arts – the book was not for sale. It was distributed among whoever attended and those who wished could have made a donation, any amount they liked at a cardboard box placed on a side table. And what’s more, anyone who wished could download the book online free of charge! Generosity, selflessness – never before seen characteristics in anything in this country, let alone in arts! In this and many other things Dinesh stands a unique individual and a worthy example.

The book was backed by a series of mesmerizing photographs by   Lakmal Ranasinghe, who was entrusted with the task of interpreting the work by DRG. I think he has done a marvelous job. The photographs are haunting and capture the essence of the woman - the root of the protagonist’s heartbreak. They are sensual, just like the writings themselves. You can checkout some of those photographs here.

A little word on the venue and the staff. Held at the CafĂ© Mocha by Barista right next to Gandara, the venue was charming with its wooden floors and the old school glamour to it, which I thought suited the event very well. And the staff was extremely friendly, ever ready to help and I could very well hand over the “staff of the year” award to these lovely boys and one girl who manned the place on that day.

Also, everything was 15% off to people who came for the event! That was definitely the cherry on top of the cake. At least for me :D

All in all, a beautiful, tasteful event, inspiring and refreshingly different. A wonderful booklet brimming with flavoursome things which for me was also emotions bound in paper Download the free PDF if you wish (and I strongly recommend that you do) and savour the loveliness. In the meantime, do enjoy the reading below.




Sunday, February 14, 2016

Bridal Diaries - Part II

So I went for my very first "beauty" treatment thingy.

So all the cajoling, chastising, scolding, threatening and bulling by both Mother Dearest and the lovely girl who will be dressing me for the big day (who can be pretty scary when she wants to be btw) came into fruition as I headed salon-ward the other day. "Why you being like this child? Other girls doing facials 6 months before the wedding and you just sitting there doing nothing till last minute." Mother Dearest would sing her anthem every time she so much as caught a glimpse of me around the house for the past few weeks at which I would nod and simply continue doing what I was doing anyway. And then one day the nodding was just not enough. A visit to the beautician was necessary. I was ugly and needed pretty-fying.

I must say that all this is very unfamiliar to me. Anyone who knows me would never be able to picture me at a salon getting my 'Beauty on' as easily as they can picture me in a WWE Championship match, possibly playing The Undertaker. The only instances when I would visit a salon would be either to get a haircut or to pluck my amazonian eyebrows which would breed monkeys and lions if I had left them to their own devices. So just lying there with a thick layer of fruit-scented muck on my face, anticipating the next muck session and the one after that was unfamiliar territory.

I have never realized that "just lying there" was such a difficult thing!

You are just lying there minding your own ooey-gooey business all over your face when all these thoughts go buzzing through your head. This little annoying voice whines in your ear like a tiny mosquito reminding you of all the things that you have to do but you haven't still done. And just lying there you start thinking what a waste of time it all is and how you could have read a book, made a cake, written your next post for your food blog, written your novel, organized your closet and etc in that time. And then when you finally doze off, you dream that you are being kidnapped by aliens (I suspect that the flapping of the foil paper covering my face had something to do with it. Also, I think I now know how a baked chicken feels), and is jolted awake when the foil is yanked off you face, convinced they yanked the skin off of your body to make a skin suit for themselves to roam the earth undetected. And then your face is swallowed up by a thick, wet sponge mopping your face all over again.

Various smells pass your nose - rose, papaya, tamarind, cloves, unidentified floral smells and the works while various textures touch your face - some thick and grainy and others smooth and satiny. Will you be wrapped up like a mummy in bandages like when she poked you with that funny little twig with a light at its end that makes a whirring sound and smells like electricity? Will she give one of those divine eye massages again (I actually liked that part of the treatment). Who is washing my face? Oh wait, that's my beautician, no it's her assistant. Ow, the eye! Watch the friggin' eye! And DON'T poke your finger in my nose, dammit! *achchoo!* God her hands are so rough, or is it just the scrub that is scraping my face? She probably had tempered dhal for lunch today, I smell tempered dhal and she probably touched a baby after that, because that's definitely Eau de Cologne. Is it her sister's baby? Or is it hers? But she doesn't have a baby. Does she have a secret baby? But babies are annoying, I'd rather have a dog. Yes, dogs are fun. I miss Frankie. Is he sleeping? Did he chew up my rosemary plants again? Have to bathe him over the weekend. The weekend! I MUST go book shopping! Oh but I can't cz I have like a gazillion things to do. Gazillion - is that even a word? How many zeros are there to gazillion? If zeros have no value, why do they add all those zeros at the end and claim that those are big amounts? Eeeeek, that's slimy, what the HELL is that? Snail juice? Why do I have snail juice on my face? Why am I doing this? Oh yeah, I'm getting married and they think I'm ugly. So what if I'm ugly? Good if I'm ugly, then I won't have to get married. Do I really have to get married? Why am I getting married? I don't wanna get married! I DON'T!!! Waaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!

....and then it goes on.

And that's not even the worst of it.  

Imagine an itchy nose, one of those super itchy ones that you are convinced that you will die if you don't scratch it, but you can't scratch it because your nose is buried under a good inch or two of thick, unnamed goo. Even if your face is muck-free, tough luck, because your arms are bound down in several layers of thick, sweet-smelling muck too!

No. Not fun at all.

Anyways, many hours later (which seemed like centuries) I emerged from under the layers looking not much different than I first did before all that washing, scrubbing and mucking. I don't see what all the fuss was about at all.

I was informed that I will have to "lie in" for two more sessions before the wedding. Sigh.

I just wish I could get spa treatments instead. Spas are fun, I like spas. There's always something happening, no lying around doing basically nothing at spas.

Hair was discussed at great lengths too. Suddenly my biggest problem in life was the parting of hair. Will it be a side parting, or will it be centre? Should there be a parting at all? If it is a side parting, should it be a left parting or a right? Because the right brings out my eyes while the left brings out my mouth. And I am required to choose between my eyes and my mouth - or something of the sort.

It gets very confusing.

Eye shadows, lipsticks, there are so many shades of pink that E.L James would have been ashamed! (what? only 50? Come on!). And then comes the colour of face powder - will it be 'Natural Bouquet', 'Warm Silk', 'Honey Bronze' or 'Winter Harvest'? Honestly, had I not been aware, I would have assumed that we were selecting dessert. Or something as exciting as dessert (but could anything else really be as exciting as dessert?)

Also, is the word "wedding" some kind of a mystical, magical word that upon speaking it, the speaker's appearance changes into something akin to a free-dispensing ATM machine? As soon as someone hears the word "wedding", the cost of pretty much everything just skyrockets to about five times more. You want a bouquet of nice, simple flowers? Rs 56,000. You want a handkerchief? That's Rs 10,000/-. You want a hairpin? Oh but that's like Rs 8,000/-!

Apart from me, it seems like everybody else is getting married because they are too rich and have nothing to do with all that dough. At least that seems to be what the commercial world out there seems to think. I for one have better use for what I earn. And there's no way in hell that I would waste my parents' hard earned cash for making these opportunists any richer either.

All things aside, getting married is serious business. Sure, you get the big, fat, white (well, champagne coloured) wedding and it's all fun, pretty dresses and games, but what then? For a girl, she might as well be born again rather than getting married. You leave your home in which you grew up all your life, your parents on whom you knew you could always fall back on, your carefree life - your lazy Sunday mornings in front of the TV watching TLC or Desperate Housewives with a cup of tea in your hand and the cheerful sunlight filtering through the lace curtains, your late night movie binges and avalanches of midnight snacks, your random shopping trips to the second hand bookstores whenever you felt like it, your solitary evenings on the balcony reminiscing about life and all things in general, your ability to get lost in a book days at end blocking out the entire world, coming home to a house fragrant with the smell of spices and a hearty home cooked meal, your mother waiting by the gate to welcome you home the bougainvilleas cascading down on her making a pretty picture, messing around with your dog who is less of an animal and more of a sibling and has grown himself into your heart muscle itself, your mother's cooking, your father's footsteps coming up the courtyard as he comes home from work with Frankie boy jumping excitedly at his heel, your parents watching the 8'O clock news together marveling at things happening in the country, your afternoon tea sessions with the parents in the living room, on the veranda or in the garden watching the antics of the Franky boy, your in depth discussions with father about the future and all things philosophical, gossip sessions and cooking tips from mom and cooking together with her in the kitchen albeit often with contrasting views, spontaneous shopping trips, exhibition explorations and lunches out with mom whenever we felt like it. Hell, I'l even miss her nagging! - there's so much I am forced to leave behind which I am not ready to leave behind yet.

Can I not get married right now? I'd rather be my parents' little girl forever.

For a man, life remains pretty much the same after marriage whereas for a girl, everything changes. Responsibilities, not only of herself and the husband but of her in-laws as well, the extra strain of coping with the expectations of the new family - this is especially hard for a private person such as myself. A woman is required to give up her surname - the one she wore with pride all these years, to give up her home - where she felt safe and protected and then to give up her lifestyle and hobbies, at least make compromises on them - all of this is basically a woman's identity. And having to give up all these things - I think it is very unfair.

But oh my darling, life is hardly fair.

It does help that I have the most kindest, the most gentlest and the most generous in-laws who accept me as their own and a man I know who will go to the other end of earth for me (if I nagged a little and he didn't have to drive that is). It also helps that he is my best friend and partner in crime and has been so for the past 7-8 years and I think he loves me enough to facilitate me being myself, doing the things that I love the most.

And it's a small miracle in itself that my vacillating, easily-bored self has stuck it out with him for 7 years going. This must be fate!

What does NOT help is that we (as myself and my fiance are both doing our MBAs together) have an assignment due just a few days after the wedding and a thesis coming up immediately after that. This coupled alongside the most stressful period at work - probably the most stressful that work will ever get and it all falls right when I decide to get married.

Sigh. Why God, why?

Anyways,

I constantly remind myself, that this too I shall get through as I always have. And this time, I have backing in the form of a somewhat annoying other half (who to my dismay, is throwing more bitch-fits than I do these days). And I am confident (not quite, but getting there) that we will totally rock it, responsibilities n all!